
Two nights ago, the best high school basketball players in the country played in what’s called, “The McDonald’s High School All America Basketball game.” This reminded me of a story. Both triumph and tragedy. But of course.
Several years ago I received a long term substitute teaching assignment at a high school teaching Geometry and Math Enrichment. That first morning I walked into a room missing one-third of its ceiling. The interior walls had been peeled off. There were no keys left on any of the six computers’ keyboards. The kids were complaining about how the government once again just doesn’t give a shit. “Why are we always, always screwed by the government?” they would ask. I spent the next several weeks both in a rage at this country for how it could continually perpetrate this crime, and devastated for these purely innocent victims. One day my curiosity got the better of me. “Just how long has this room been so decrepit? How long has this injustice lasted?” I asked a student.
“Oh, the second period guys did it around November.”
Sucker! The only thing I felt for days. Sucker. These kids did it to themselves and had the gall to place all blame elsewhere.
All the halls of my new school were repainted six months ago.
Hell no, you couldn’t tell now!
Paint’s torn off. Gang insignia and marker writing covers the walls of each corridor. Half the floors in the rooms of my wing were scrubbed and waxed spotless, as well. Their desks buffed free of any marking.
Hell no, you couldn’t tell now!
Seats, desks, floors, walls, and in two rooms, ceilings contain gang markings. Even the non-gang members get into the act with their own versions of “Joanie loves Chachi” all over the damn place.
Two weeks ago I needed to take over a classroom during my prep period for a teacher that had broken down crying. She was done having her face smushed in by the hand of a fourteen year old. She was done being called a bitch. A cunt. A loser. A fuckface. Done being asked, “So, how much longer do you expect to live, teaching here?”
I asked the students if they knew: people come from all over the world to teach in the inner cities of Los Angeles. People take pay cuts to try to help these underprivileged youth. Some of the smartest people in the world. And they all have something in common, these brave souls.
No, it’s not that they all quit on you, as you told me I had when I threw up my hands and said, “This isn’t worth it.” I was going to school at night and only being paid sub wages to teach people ripping up my lessons every day. No one really ever quits on you. You never let them start!
Yup, after you’ve stolen enough of their property; thrown paint on their clothes; cursed them out; told them they should “watch their step;” they say, “enough, I’m going to teach somewhere else.” “I’m going to teach, for god’s sake!”
Soon, you will learn to repeat the same damn mantra just like the high school-ers. Every time there aren’t enough teachers to teach all the classes and they need to be filled by day-to-day substitutes, or a hallway becomes too decrepit to bare, you will shout: Everybody screws us! Everybody screws us! Everybody screws us!
No, there is no greater harm being done to you nowadays than the harm you are doing to yourselves, and to those who care so much for you.
So, why triumph?
Because one of the players in that game several days ago had been at my high school. But he and his mother could not accept classes where learning was impossible. A place where education was not even an afterthought in the children’s lives, rather an intrusion. And this young man used his athletic prowess to its fullest advantage. He transferred. To a better basketball school? Maybe. But I was there when he and his mom, a secretary there, made that final decision. And I know that it was about his education. He would leave, and finally he would get one.